Part 22- The risk, is it worth it?

This post is dedicated to all my silent readers… I hope you start commenting soon ๐Ÿ˜‰ lol

Enjoy!


I swirled up some cheesecake, mixed berry and granadilla flavoured Wakaberry and sprinkled on some pecan nuts and a huge dose of milky bar syrup before waiting for Ayaaz, Zaydaan and Humaira to weigh it all up. After supper, we took a walk and then opted for some Wakaberry before it was time to head home.

Humaira sat close to Ayaaz and offered her a taste of her bubble-gum flavoured frozen yoghurt. He seemed quite comfortable with her. I couldn’t help but wonder if there was something going on between them…

“Reez”, Zaydaan called, snapping me out of my thoughts.

“Huh, yea?” I responded slightly flustered.

“Where are you lost?” He asked laughing at me.

“Sorry, just thinking, ” I said, smiling a full smile at him.

He smiled back and we all joined in a general conversation, laughing and joking.


I pulled him to me and hugged him once more.
“Bye Zayy,” I told him smiling at him. It’s a bittersweet moment as I’m happy to see him but sad to say bye to him.

“Bye angel, talk to you soon,” he said to me.

Ayaaz and Humaira said their goodbyes too and soon enough, Ayaaz and I were back on our way home.

“Thanks Ayaaz,” I said to him, smiling.

“It was my pleasure… Did everything go well?” He asked.

“Yea…” I said and then trailed off.

“That doesn’t sound very convincing,” he questioned laughing lightly.

“He asked me to be his girlfriend…” I said and then I kept quiet waiting for a response from him.

“Oh…” He replied. “So what did you say?”

“I told him I’ll think about it…” I said softly.

“So what are you thinking?” He asked.

“I just don’t want to get hurt again… I’ve always liked Zaydaan but I’m scared…”

Ayaaz put his left hand over mine while his right hand remained on the steering wheel.

“Don’t worry. I’m here whatever your decision is. Just choose whatever makes you happy.” He said as he smiled at me and I held onto his hand.

“Thanks,” I said. “It means a lot.”

“Well, you can’t get rid of me no matter what!” He said and we both laughed. We stay in silence for a few minutes before I speak.

“So, you and Humaira huh?” I asked him.

“Haha no no it’s not like that… We’re just friends, really.” He said.

“But you guys seem quite close…”

“Yea we were when we were on campus together. She’s great but she’s just awesome to hang out with, nothing else.” He said. “Actually, that’s partially because of me, I’m not a very committing person.”

“So you won’t commit to anyone?” I asked him questioningly.

“It’s not that I won’t commit. I just don’t want to commit to someone until I know she’s worth it.” He said.

“Hmm okay, makes sense I guess.” I said, thinking about it. “But how do you ever know that she’s worth it?”

“That’s the thing, you don’t… You just have to take the risk. But before you do that, you need to think, is it worth it?” He said as he looked at me.

His words rung in my head as I thought about taking a risk with Zaydaan.

I wished Ayaaz goodnight when he dropped me off and after a great night, I went into bed thinking about Zaydaan and I.

We were great together. He was always special to me and we had this connection that I couldn’t explain. He is sweet and caring and he pays attention. He listens to me and makes me smile when I need him the most. He understands me and I can talk to him about anything.

But is all of this really worth the risk? The risk of me getting hurt again. The risk of my family finding out. I donโ€™t need it to be easy, I just need it to be worth it.

I thought long and hard while I lay in bed. Eventually I fell asleep and forgot all about it, about Zaydaan, while I dreamt of sunshine and rainbows. Ironically, life isn’t all sunshine and rainbows.

I woke up forย Sundayย morning breakfast. Pancakes, chocolate syrup and bananas and strawberries on the side. I love fruit and I love pancakes, so fruit and pancakes were perfect! Moe ate with me before he headed off to a car show in Kyalami with Ahmed and Zak.

Sumz came over just after breakfast. Uncle Hussain and Aunty Rukaya were gone to Makro for groceries so instead of staying home alone, she came to chill with me.

“Soooo, spill! How was last night?” She asked me excitingly.

I laughed at her and filled her in on all that happened.

“He looked so hot in his white shirt!!!” I told as I held the sides of my face in shock. “I think I melted on the inside.”

Sumz laughed at me, “I don’t know what it is with you and white shirts.”

“We had supper at Spur as planned. Ayaaz booked two tables, one for me and Zayy and another for him and Humaira. It’s his old campus friend.”

“Oh nice! So how was Zaydaan?” She asked.

“He was great. He was amazing. We laughed and joked and spoke about general things…” I trailed off.

“What are you hiding from me?” She asked curiously.

“Well…” I bit my lip nervously. “He asked me to be his girlfriend…” I told her as I looked at her nervously.

“He what???” She screamed in shock.

“Ssshhhhh!!! Keep it down woman!” I shouted her as I laughed at her reaction.

“OMG!!! Jeez, way to go all out Zaydaan!” She said still in shock.

I laughed at her response again.

“Yea so that’s what happened…” I said.

“So what did you say?” She asked questioningly.

“I told him I’ll think about it. We were done with supper and Ayaaz was coming over so I just brushed him off. And I actually do need to think about it. I don’t know if he’s what I really want.” I told her, confessing.

“Hmmm, tough call… I canโ€™t tell you what to do or what to say. But I ca tell you, just follow your heart Reez.” She told me as she smiled at me.

We headed downstairs and sat with my mum for a while before Sumz parents came over after shopping at Makro. We decided to go for coffee so Sumz, Aunty Rukaya, my mum and I went to Mc Donald’s for the Mc Cafรฉ.

“Two hot chocolates with cream for us and get us sugared donuts.” My mum told Sumz and I as we stood in the line to order and they went to get a table.

We ordered their stuff and two mocha frappรฉs for Sumz and I and chocolate mud pies to eat. The frappรฉs were cold and refreshing for the heat November offered and we enjoyed it in the company of each other. Sitting and relaxing with family is something you just cannot replace.

Sumz randomly poked me while we were eating.
“Hey, don’t poke me!” I said to her as I rubbed my side that she poked.

Aunty Rukaya and my mum started laughing hysterically. Aunty Rukaya said, โ€œWhen your husband wants to give you a poke are you going to say hey, don’t poke me?”

Sumz and I just looked at them with straight faces.

“I have no words…” I told them before Sumz and I started laughing too.

My mum and Aunty Rukaya turn everything possible into something sexual. Don’t ask me why, they just do. So we were kind of used to it but no matter how much you do it, you can never really get used to it when it comes from your mother’s mouth.

After lots more sexual statements and many laughs we headed home and prepared for supper. Some of my other cousins came for supper too and we enjoyed a yummy meal of steak and vegetables before we all relaxed on the couch.

In the back of my mind I thought about Zaydaan. If my family finds out about him, I’ll lose all of this. The understanding, love and closeness that we have. They’ll think everything I ever said was a lie and they won’t trust me ever again. Once again I was baffled with the thought, is it really worth the risk?

After everyone left, I retreated to my room and sat on my bed. Moe came and chilled with me as he showed me his new games on his Samsung S6 Edge. He got a free game pad with the phone so he was quite amused.

After some terrible attempts at Real Racing 3, I gave up and gave it back to him before I smashed any more cars or drove on gravel again. He went to his room and I went onto the balcony.

I pulled out my iPhone and searched for his dimpled smile. Zaydaan.

I called him and he answered after a few rings.

“Heyy angel” he answered.

“Heyy sugar, how are you?”

“I’m good thanks and you? What you up to?” He said lovingly.

“I’m good, just sitting on the balcony…” I said to him. “I called to tell you something…”

“Hmmm, I’m listening?” He said.

“I thought about what you asked me…” I said nervously.


Zaydaan’s P.O.V.

I thought long and hard about Reezย on Sunday. I wanted her to be my girlfriend but I couldn’t force her to give me an answer last night.

She said she has to think about it and I know the thought of me hurting her again crossed her mind. I don’t blame her, I hurt her before. But I have no intention of doing it again.

This time, I just wanted her to be by my side. Someone to call mine. I want it to be Reez because I might love her, I want to take care of her and I want to be loved back.

I waited all day for something from her, some clue or some hint. Hell, even just a message from her would make me happy. But I got nothing…

I was in my room playing on my Xbox when she called. I paused my game and spoke to her, hoping she would tell me what she’s thinking.

“I thought about what you asked me…” She said into the phone. I could hear her nervousness as her voice shook a little.

“Okay, what will it be?” I asked her, equally nervous.

I heard a smile through the phone as she said “Yes, I’ll be your girlfriend!”

I let out a breath that I didn’t even realize I was holding and I smiled.

“I’m so glad you gave me another chance Reez, I promise you won’t regret it!” I told her excitedly.

I was happy to finally have another chance at fixing what I ruined… Us.

I spoke to Reez for a little while longer, elated from her acceptance. I really couldn’t be happier.

I wished her goodnight and the sweetest dreams before kissing her through the phone and hopping into bed myself. And for the first time in a long time, I slept with a smile on my face as I dreamt about Reez… Her beautiful smile, her gorgeous eyes, her warm hugs and her acceptance of me…

Author- S


Those of you that hate Zaydaan, please don’t hate me for making her say yes… Lol!

On the contrary, did you enjoy the post?? Let me know ๐Ÿ˜€

Pictures for today’s post are below!

Until next time…

Much love

Xoxo

Wakaberry with Ayaaz, Zaydaan and Humaira

Wakaberry with Ayaaz, Zaydaan and Humaira

Bittersweet goodbye to Zaydaan

Bittersweet goodbye to Zaydaan

The risk for Reez

The risk for Reez

Sunday breakfast... Yummy!

Sunday breakfast… Yummy!

Mocha Frappรฉs at Mc Cafe

Mocha Frappรฉs at Mc Cafe

Sumz and Reez: This friend is our mothers

Sumz and Reez: This friend is our mothers

She said Yes to Zaydaan!

She said Yes to Zaydaan!

Zaydaan: I want someone to call mine...

Zaydaan: I want someone to call mine…

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  4. I’m a silent reader but I decided that ill post a comment cause i just cant t help it i really like zaydaan and I want zaydaan and Reez to be together for forever because they sooo cute and zaydaan is juts so real Reez also have a wonderful personality and so does zaydaan omw what a cute couple ur blog is amazing keep up the wonderful work and post soon ๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ™Œโค๏ธZaydaanโค๏ธReez

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  5. Awesome post Miss S ๐Ÿ˜ƒ..I thought u are going to keep us in suspense much longer hehe.. I wonder if Ayaaz is really going to be there for Reez now that she chose Zaydaan as her bf. Cant wait for the next post ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ‘

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  6. Bloody Naan 8o
    Mxm_ seriously Miss S ๐Ÿ˜ ?
    You made her take the RiSK that’s not worth it ๐Ÿ˜ฆ
    Oh well I’m preparing my self for thee future heartache 8o ๐Ÿ˜ฅ
    I know Ayaaz will be her knight in shining foil 8o
    Burr anyway
    It happened now, what must do 8o
    Kay so shot a lot for le post ๐Ÿ˜€
    Hope you eating less and smiling more ๐Ÿ˜‰ =))
    Haha kidding, food is real happiness ๐Ÿ˜€
    Tc superwoman ๐Ÿ˜€

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  7. Here’s the silent readers >>>>>> I’m totes teaming with โ€ขzayyyyyyyโ€ขhis funnyยค his a good listener and remembers everything REEZ tells him ยค his totes adorbs ยค Yepppppp he has his faults but doesn’t everyone have faults? Ayyaz has faults too, his faults are just not been displayedยค that’s why he seems so ‘dreamy’ but back to the real world ‘ayyaz fans’ I like Reez to she’s funny ยค kind ยค she loooovveeeesss fooooooodddddddd ยค and hopefully she loooovveeeesss zayyyyyyy Yayyyy ยค I’m enjoying reading your blog this far ยคยคยคยคยคยคยคยคยคยค

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  8. Okay I really do wish Zaydaan does exist…so I can walk up and give him a punch!!!! and you Reeez??? *talk to the hand*!!! whyyyy?! but Ayaaaaz? he and you are meant!! not Zaydaaan! he be hurting u again…!! me knows his changing but me no have positive vibes about him x_X Ayaaaaz only wants to commit to Reeez ๐Ÿ˜› right miss S? ๐Ÿ˜› That will happen right? #Lovedthepost #AyaaaZlookedgreatinthepreviouspost #Ayaaazismyfav! #menolikeyZayyy!!! #memadatReez!!! #WHEREONEARTHISLEE?

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    • Aah so glad to have U back Amina ๐Ÿ˜„๐Ÿ˜„ haha yea sorry she said yes ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜ U Ayaaz fans are gonna kill me ๐Ÿ™ˆ but let’s just wait and see what happens, shall we? ๐Ÿ˜‰

      Glad u loved the post! ๐Ÿ˜ƒโ˜บ๏ธ๐Ÿ˜Š

      Thanx for the great comment as always ๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ˜‰

      Much love ๐Ÿ˜˜
      Xoxo

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  9. So here’s the thing all along I was confused who I liked more between Ayaaz and Zaydaan but hyyyyy now I’m decided!!!!!!! *drumroll* ((((((( yessss waaiiitttt for it) )))))))) Zaydaan ;;)))))) don’t get me wrong I still think ayaaz is awesome but his abit far fetched too, you can see his a *fiction* character! Where as zaydaan (well where do I begin) his just more real (if you know what I mean) and hyyyyy all zaydaan fans hands of him his still mine (sticks tongue out) (salutes zaydaan) thank you for been a constant blogger (big smile)

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  10. You kidding me right? So here’s my theory reez and zaydaan are gonna have a smooth sailing for a while and then BOOM somethings gonna go wrong ๐Ÿ˜ฆ but hyyyyy that can’t happen , zaydaan is trying soo hard x_x I think i might be falling hard for him :))))))))))))

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  11. She’s taking the RISK??!!! And zaydaan (yeah zaydaan loll) said he MIGHT love her again. MIght can he even use that M word for love!!!

    Maybe he won’t mess up this time, well I don’t think he will, but I have nooo idea, whatever the case, I enjoyed the post as altyd ๐Ÿ˜‰ ๐Ÿ˜€

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